After a semester

8 Dec, my last exam paper, after it, packing all the stuff into the store room and heading home.

It was a night trip where I alone going back to my home town, without anyone known going back with me. Finally reach home with a little bit excited for the gathering that I plan, big smile in my mouth when saw my mom, and this is the end of my first semester at UUM.

Hang out with friend, let me know that all of them were trying really hard to get a better credit for their exam except for me. I feel a bit far away from them, well I cant speak english, my exam was horrible, and I hate to lose.

I got a plan right now to think of study hard at the next semester, but I dunno how. My roommate is nice person just didnt see him study, and there are all sort of temptation in my room, movie, games, chatting. Actually I want to be successful, I wanted to work hard, I plan to go library every single day to study for the future but I dunno how long it will last.

That is a will but how long it will be..............................

For now dont think too much

Just do it

Just do want u want

dont think of 2moro

where there will be no 2moro

if it isnt for today

I can't say

アイシテヨ　アイニキテ　言えたなら あなたはどうするかな?　わがままな アタシをわかってよ

アイシテヨ　アイニキテ　言えたなら 幸せになれるかな? こわいけど

アイシテヨ　アイニキテ　言えたなら あなたはどうするかな? もしかして

本当は気づいてるの? You know…

Just those word I cant'say

UUM life

University Utara Malaysia thats what UUM stand for. Where is UUM, everyone it is locate at a place call Sintok in Kedah. If the person have ever stay in there will definitely call it jungle.....

A jungle, we call it a good thing and also a bad thing. The good things is fresh air, nice view, with all those bugs around and those monkeys that stealing food and clothes ....-.-|| The things that I hate about it the poor convenience, all those long walk, hawker stall where cheap but hotcup where expensive....-.-||. Well done for the introduction next step the main topic the life a university student.

I live very far from uni, is about 8 hour of pain in the ass to go there. I remember, my family arrive there one day earlier before it start, my mom take us a short tour in to my Dewan Penginapan Pelajar (accommodation). My DPP were outside the campus and is not very near to the campus (45 min of walking...-.-||), the first thing I thought is OMG, are buses always provided?(NO... is the answer), on the way from campus to the DPP, I can see trees trees trees and and one unfinished building. It was quite nice actually but many people say that road wasn't " clean", like I care, my thought is you don't bother me, and I won't bother you.

Is it ghost scary? I will say yes but I want their existence. Why? This is because I'm affair of the word gone, like rubbish you throw it away but is it really gone? It still exist but if I die, am I gone? I don't know but I hate the world gone, I want to exist no matter in what form or what state as long I exist that is enough for me. But if you ask me, am I afraid of die, I will reply no and yes. I'm not afraid of dead, everyone and anything dies so what to afraid for, you like it or not you have to face it, but I afraid of be dead if my mission have done yet.What is my mission? Maybe later I will tell a story that I like to be, a story that i made but still in progress. Actually I almost die before not just once but twice, but maybe mean self or the god give me a chance, a chance to complete my mission..... thank no matter who thank but this inspiration is getting weaker and weaker until the second dead remind me again about my mission. Knock my head next time please...... I scare I won't wake up after the reminder given to me.

Aya Hirano

Aya Hirano, the first image of her is
God Knows, the song I heard
Skillful electric guitar played
that attract me the most
giving a illusion of I was playing it

Nice song for this
Others I can say ok only ........
No so attractive









God Knows

kawaita kokoro de kakenukeru
gomen ne nanimo dekinakute
itami o wakachiau koto sae
anata wa yurushite kurenai

mukuni ikiru tame furimukazu
senaka mukete satte shimau
on the lonely rail

watashi tsuite iku yo
donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
kitto anata wa kagayaite
koeru mirai no hate
yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo ima
futari ni God bless...

todokete atsuku naru omoi wa
genjitsu tokashite samayou
aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
anata e afuredasu Lovin' you

semete utsukushii yume dake o
egaki nagara oikake you
for your lonely heart

yamete uso wa anata rashiku nai yo
me o mite korekara no koto o hanasou
watashi kakugo shiteru
kurai mirai datte
tsuyoku natte unmei kaerareru kamo ne
my wish kanaetai no ni
subete wa God knows...

anata ga ite watashi ga ite
hoka no hito wa kieta shimatta
awai yume no utsukushisa o egaki nagara
kizuato nazoru

dakara watashi tsuite iku yo
donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
kitto anata wa kagayaite
koeru mirai no hate
yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasareru you ni
my way kasanaru yo
ima futari ni God bless...

I run with a parched heart
Sorry, I couldn’t do anything
You won’t even let me
Share pain together with you

To live purely, I turn my back
Without looking back and leave
on the lonely rail

I’ll follow you
No matter how bitter it is, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you’re shining
I’ll overcome the limit of the future
So that my soul won’t be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two…

Thoughts that grow hot when delivered
Melt into reality and wander
There’s no reason to my feeling like seeing you
It overflows to you, Lovin’ you

At the very least, while I only draw
A beautiful dream, I’ll chase you
for your lonely heart

Stop it, telling lies isn’t like you
Look at my eyes and let’s talk about things from now on
I’m ready
Even in a dark future
I’ll become strong and my destiny just might be changeable
Even though I want to fulfill my wish
God knows everything…

You exist, I exist
And other people disappeared
While I draw the beauty of a faint dream
I trace my scars

So I’ll follow you
No matter how bitter it is, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you’re shining
I’ll overcome the limit of the future
So that my soul won’t be broken due to my weaknesses
my way will overlap
Now, God bless us two…

Nami Tamaki 玉置 成実

My first time listening Japanese song was inspire by her Nami
Her song was hear in the 1st ending song in gundam seed destiny -Reason

The music follow
The voice
give another refreshment of music
that the beginning of the Japanese song journey.........

Reason

tooku hanareteru hodo ni chikaku ni kanjiteru samishisa mo tsuyosa eto kawatteku... kimi wo omottanara

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are. Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.

machi mo hito mo yume mo kaeteiku jikan ni tada sakaratteita kotoba wo kasanete mo wakari aenai koto mada shiranakatta ne

In a time where streets, people and dreams change, I could only oppose them. I still did not realize, That there are things that can't be conveyed even with words.

kimi dake wo dakishimetakute nakushita yume kimi wa "akiramenaide" to itta

My lost dreams of wanting to hold you by my side, For them, you said, "Don't give up!"

tooku hanareteru hodo ni chikaku ni kanjiteru samishisa mo tsuyosa eto kawatteku... kimi wo omottanara setsunaku mune wo sasu sore wa yume no kakera arinomama deaeteta sono kiseki mou ichido shinjite

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are. Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you. The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream. Believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting.

kimi ga inai hibi ni zutto tachitomatta demo arukidashiteru kimi to wakachiatta dono guuzen nimo imi ga sou kanarazu atta

In the days without you, I've stopped moving. But now I am walking out of here. All the coincidences we shared, certainly They all have their meanings.

sorezore no yume wo kanaete mata meguriau toki guuzen wa unmei ni naru

When our dreams comes true one by one, and we meet again, The coincidences become destiny.

yabureta yakusoku sae mo chikai ni kaetanara ano basho de deau toki ano koro no futari ni nareru kana? "yasashisa" ni niteiru natsukashii omokage

If even the torn promises can change into vows, Can we also change back to the two of us from the time we met at that place? The dear faces that resemble "kindness".

me wo tojite mieru kara te wo furezu arukoto wo shiru kara

I can see with my eyes closed, I know you are here without our hands touching.

asu ni hagurete kotae ga nanimo mienakute mo kimi ni au sono tame ni kasaneteku "kyou" to iu shinjitsu

Even if I can't see the astrayed answers tomorrow, I carry the truth known as "today" in order to meet you.

tooku hanareteru hodo ni chikaku ni kanjiteru samishisa mo tsuyosa eto kawatteku... kimi wo omotta nara setsunaku mune wo sasu sore wa yume no kakera arinomama deaeteta sono kiseki mou ichido shinjite

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are. Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you. The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream. As it is, believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting.

http://www.tamaki-nami.net/

Change

I was inspire by this song
First I just thought it was a nice song
cause most of the song i heard a base on the music
not the lyrics
but after knowing the meaning

it sounded better

Lyrics ( Translation )

Change
I won't be bent and dragged along
I want to stay true to what I'm feeling now
Change
No matter how many times I'm reborn
I'll embrace my sorrow as I run

I met a sad betrayal
But I didn't fall for it; I'm right here
It's not enough; it's never ending
It becomes more distorted
This world, which is infested
Makes me lose sight of who I am
I don't want to be bound by restrictions
So don't make decisions for me

I'm going down a trackless path
Because just standing there and waiting
Will never get you anywhere

Change
I won't be bent and dragged along
I want to stay true to what I'm feeling now
I won't let them have it their way
Change
No matter how many times I'm reborn
I'll embrace my sorrow as I run
I can't return to your side anymore
In my own way, I wanna change

What's with that hesitation?
Where's your unhurt self?
It's not vanishing
It doesn't become rusty, so shake it off
It draws even more attention
This world has begun to be aware of the change
I'm flipping a new page, imitating it
And what are you imitating to be the future you think of?

I'm going down the loveless tomorrow
Don't stop listening; I'm missing you
I want to go forward

Change
I will not stop, and I'm not looking back
At any time, I wish to search for the truth
I even think that tears are beautiful
Change
I will never forget, and I will never lose you
I'll still embrace my happiness as I run
I've finally run from your side
In my own ways, I wanna change

Before I change, you were there
Before you change, I was there
Change, change
I'll run

Change
I won't be bent and dragged along
I want to stay true to what I'm feeling now
I won't let them have it their way
Change
No matter how many times I'm reborn
I'll still embrace my sadness as I run
If we are able to see the same view again
Someday, I want to come back to you
In my own ways, I wanna change

Change - miwa
Lyrics ( Romaji )

CHANGE nabikanai nagasarenai yo
ima kanjiru koto ni sunao de itai no
CHANGE nandodemo umarekawaru no
kanashimi mo dakishimete hashiri dasu yo

TANOSHII uragiri ni atte torawarenai atashi ga koko ni iru no
tarinai tsukinai nandatte motto hizumasete yo
PATTERN kashita konna sekai ja jibun ga dare na no ka wakaranaku naru
waku ni hamaritakunai wa kimetsukenai de yo

michinakimichi o iku no
soko ni itatte matteitatte nani mo hajimaranai

CHANGE nabikanai nagasarenai yo
ima kanjiru koto ni sunao de itai no
dareka no omoidoori ni wa sasenai wa
CHANGE nandodemo umarekawaru no
kanashimi mo dakishimete hashiri dasu yo
anata no moto ni wa mou kaerenai wa
atashi wa atashi rashiku I WANNA CHANGE

nande sonna tameratte mitasarenai anata wa doko ni iru no
kienai sabinai furikitte motto haurasete yo
kawatta kara kizuku sekai wa ima no atashi o utsushite kureru desho
anata no omou mirai wa nani ga utsutte iru no
ainaki asu he iku no
hikitomenaide koishikutatte atashi wa susumitai

CHANGE tomaranai furimukanai yo
itsudatte shinjitsu motomete itai no
namida mo itooshiku omoeru kigasuru
CHANGE wasurenai nakushitakunai
yorokobi mo dakishimete hashiri dasu yo
anata no moto kara hanarete shimatte mo
atashi wa atashi rashiku I WANNA CHANGE

atashi ga kawatta saki ni anata ga iru nara
anata ga kawatta saki ni atashi ga iru nara

CHANGE CHANGE hashiri dasu yo

CHANGE nabikanai nagasarenai yo
ima kanjiru koto ni sunao de itai no
dareka no omoidoori ni wa sasenai wa
CHANGE nandodemo umarekawaru no
kanashimi mo dakishimete hashiri dasu yo
futari de onaji keshiki ga mireru nara
anata no moto ni itsuka kaeritai wa
atashi wa atashi rashiku I WANNA CHANGE

Translation & Correction: Dattebayo’s Bleach release

Want to know more about it
http://www.miwa-web.com/

Earth, God, Human

I have a thought that the world is about to end
Ya maybe the causes of global warming
but i think that humanity is the main for me

I hate to say the world is a host while human being parasite
We were living on it, keep suck the blood of it
and what do us human done for earth?
Example think for yourself...

Human Human Human
We are ONLY HUMAN (K)
but why can't anyone is this earth be good?
why crime are done?
why they must rob?
they must steal?
they must hurt?
Selfish I can say
When I was small 1 always think all human is kind
Cause it is always around me those kindness
but grown to a teenager i start to understand
most of the people around me doesn't that kind
They are all sort of kindness
I can only seen a little kindness in their eyes
It is okay for me I satisfied
but in the out world I can see kindness, why?
I haven been out yet
but the experience of all tell me this
this world need god back
or god power to change the world
Actually I like the manga death note
and of course Kira (Light Yagami)
I think the world need the power of the death note
and Kira
Kira, you were smart but why can't you control your ego
That make you lose, Kira
I can say u were only human not a god
As god is most ideal
maybe HE have the power of the death note
but he thinks
When a person die the 1 who be sad is not him is the person around him
I think god think this way too
so HE didn't use it
The only think HE is doing is wait
Punishment sure take place for any step that you goes wrong

Earth, I know you are undergoing 1 stages
I hope you can delay it further
I know I can't stop you
but got one request
stay until my mission is over
I don't want my mission failed

Sort of people

I always hear that in this world got all sort of people
Maybe I always stay at home
Don't know the outside world
After entering some camp
Meeting all sort off people
Finally understand
People are unpredictable
Understand which people are hatred

In my school
I only hear humble word
Humble talks
I never see anyone bullshitting so much until now
I meet a guy in the camp
He is my room mate
He was good in the first day but start his bullshit journey the next day
Always talk how good he his
How smart is him
I didn't bother him cause that is his mouth
But about 90% of over camp student dislike it
Starting to boycott him
Other start planing to fool him
Ya we did fool him
The story please wait......
So don't be that person
Everyone hate that sort of people

かんがえる

I always think about life and what is life about?
I asked few people, some say is paradise or some say is hell
One's say that life is all about helping people
All sort of answer, all sort of understanding
For me life is a gift
A very lucky gift
In this world, there are so many people living but
There are also so many other living thing
I thank god for lending me be a human being
In my thought, life have only one and is yours not other(キラヤマト）
I did think me as an ant
Life is short and always busy here and there
With the small size of me
Dead is so easily
One step one flick dead occur

Or a life as a tree
Standing there forever
Grow slow day by day
Every day was just drinking and growing
Until a fire occur or a parasite suck you all up
It will never end

Human are just like a monster on this planet
Kill everything
Take everything
A destroyer, search and destroy
When do human start understand the meaning of life
when they will know to appreciate other and own life
To their own kind only to all the life god create
As I remind again there are only one chance

Appreciate our life and other living thing around you
Now I don't want to take other life any more
But I still do it, why?
I chase away bug but no killing them
But I still enjoy the food by my mom where all were meat
For now I say to myself
For now only

Blogging sure is fun splitting all the thing on my mind if u see it think about it what is your life for( mine still in progress)

はじめまして

わたしは　ジンです
Blog は　はじめです
Is that correct ???
Hello everyone,
Just starting blogging and learn Japanese so go easy on me.....
Language is not my type so do communicate
でわ　 これからよろしく　おねがいします